Steppin’ Back in Time…

How was your Thanksgiving day?

Mine was pleasant. I must say I’ve loved the way Americans honor and treasure this holiday, it was effortlessly contagious. And this week while interacting with a guest at work, she found me to be diplomatic 😊. I wonder whether it’s a good thing. The other description I’ve tumbled upon quite a number of times, is I’ve been told I’m philosophical in my expression. That too, I wonder if is a good thing 🤷‍♀️. What I personally know though is I tend to be very analytical. My former boss described me as meticulous and assiduous. And while doing business and preparing some soft interior furnishes 3 years back, a close friend of mine told me I pay keen attention to detail when she visited me in my house ‘cos I’d undo stitches on some fabrics designated for a certain product, fill ’em up again to a desired capacity, re-stitch ’em ’till I could get the perfect end product. I don’t gamble with quality when it comes to execution. One of my favorite cousins calls me ‘perfectionist’, and that too, I question if is a good thing 😎.

So, how has your past decade been?

Just took a short backward look at mine by walkin’ down mem’ry lane, puttin’ the Spiritual Warfare project aside shortly and will be resuming in a minute.

Well, mine has been one of growth in untold measure. Looking back at the last 10 years immensely speaks of a picture of God’s mercy, faithfulness and undeserved favor. Been a decade of growth in: prayer & spiritual formation, financial literacy, endurance & resilience, professional skills attainement, life’s priority check, growth in diversity & flexibility, and the list is without end.

And well, this year? The decade’s closing with a year that felt as though I was plunged in the very deep end. Four years back, having worked for close to 4 years in a francophone European diplomatic mission as a Bilingual PA to the Trade Commissioner in an office whose jurisdiction was in 6 countries of operation, handling trade logistics, business & economic missions as well as international trade affairs, I thought then that that was busy enough ’till this year when I have had to work: 12 midnight to 8am shifts, 8am to 4pm shifts with majority of my work shifts being the 4pm to midnight shifts (talk of the real 24 hour economy), mostly getting back to the house at 1.30am after a 30mins train journey… then the hardest lesson I have had to learn is flexibility & availability – being accessible within a short span of notice, yet without succumbing to availability due to desperation. Working in a fast-paced city that’s situated in a state that borders New York only means that the speed of execution is relatively, almost similarly quick.

What I’ve enjoyed the most is doing what has become my new love having done it now for 6.5yrs – Administration, despite my area of training & expertise being Teaching.

Mark Batterson puts it this way, “Everything in your past is preparation for something in your future. God wastes nothing!” I look at my last decade and from teaching full-time as well as part-time, to being a Travel Consultant – preparing trip proposals, engaging in research and negotiating rates with hotels and airlines, to being a Content Editor in 3 languages with a Mobile Media & Communication Technology firm that covered around 13 countries in Africa, to working in the Trade section of a European embassy whose country is a world leader in the production of unparalleled chocolates & pharmaceuticals just to name but a few, then ending up as a prospective entrepreneur, a blogger/ writer/ poet/ playwright (and God is yet to fully unleash the underlying, unstoppable potential within), then I’m a living testimony that indeed God wastes nothing!

Every skill I’ve attained in my previous mission has always given me an upper hand in the next. And every life: skill, experience, network, challenge, setback and lesson has always thrusted me forth to the next dimension.

Have I had personal setbacks? Yes – new companies closing down, lay-offs, resignations, staying off work for months, even years etc. Did these experiences strengthen me? Yes they did. What of family struggles & setbacks? Yes we have had some and only emerged stronger and closer to each other than ever.

What of relational and friendship goals? Well, in life, you meet people who value you too much, almost to the point of worship. Then you also meet those who hold no value at all towards you, the latter, I treat their perspective of me with a grain of salt. What ultimately counts is, ‘how do I see myself?’, ‘how do you see yourself?’. It fundamentally starts from there before addressing ‘how do I/ you see others?’ Everyone enjoys authentic company and authentic for me is tried & tested over a duration of time and found to befit my trust. The introverted side of me goes for quality as opposed to quantity and as a result, I make very strong bonds but very few friends with very deep roots. It’s a logic your system will never ever comprehend ’till Jesus comes back if you’re 100% extroverted. Been told I talk to strangers as though I’ve known ’em my entire life. Be not fooled, I make friends very quick but trust people really slow, it takes years. That’s just me, and that’s my principle. So, over the past decade, I’ve had the priviledge again of making few more authentic bonds.

So, what am I grateful for? So, so much, the list would be cracking from overload. Let’s just say I’m grateful for everything to this point.

And so what next? In the next decade plus many more to come, I just wanna move to a much higher realm of spiritual maturity and wisdom, make the world around me better and more habitable and of course stay true to the purpose for which God created me. It’ll take self-discipline, courage, shutting out negative energy, hardwork, determination, focus, sacrifice, perserverance, rejoicing & being grateful etc, but ultimately being constantly aligned to the irrefutable will of the Great I Am. If I can die empty, if I can fulfill His purposes for me, not as per my strategies & methods but in line with His prescriptive procedures & techniques then I’m all good 🙌. If only I can do so within the confines of His divine will for me, everything in His time and not mine, wisely utilising the chronos at my disposal and being super alert to His set kairos…yeah, if I can do so not with the associations I choose for myself but with the divine destiny propellers He has already gone ahead and established for me, not so as to bring glory to man or work gracelessly hard for their applause, but rather execute it all for an audience of One (1), then I’m perfectly good. PURPOSE – that’s all I’m passionate about and all I endeavor to achieve; everything else is simply a bonus 😊. Human accolades are just that. But if I can get home and my Friend tells me, “well done good and faithful servant”, then right there and then, it’s ‘Mission Bien Terminé!’

So, you outchea working on a project? A business, on higher education, a book or books, a building project, a franchise etc? In a world oozing of hurt, discouragement, lack of support or people quick to tarnish whatever you’re handling, here’s my encouragement:

Many years ago, I had the priceless priviledge of attending a talk issued by the 2004 Nobel Peace Prize laureate & Environmental activist, Prof. Wangari Maathai at the French School – Lycée Denis Didérot, located at Yaya centre in Nairobi, Kenya. I took notes and really enjoyed the session. Two things however stuck and ’till date, remain very vivid. 1. I wasn’t told but I saw just how down to earth she was. 2. Much as I was very young then, it didn’t escape me for a moment watching in awe at how the ‘wazungus’ treated her with extreme honor – the way they adjusted her microphone, the way they opened her bottled mineral water and replenished her glass… oh my goodness! I can still see the pictures all so clearly. And my young mind couldn’t help but reckon, clearly singling out that her countrymen/ countrywomen didn’t treat her with the same measure of honor – a case of a prophet being without honor in her country. I was very young then, very very young, yet I still remember all these.

Fast forward to today, I remembered Maathai’s favorite story of the Hummingbird that she curated, which has stood the test of time and that I’d love to remind us of. Even in that forum that I attended, she narrated the story.

“We are constantly being bombarded by problems that we face and sometimes, we can get completely overwhelmed.

The story of the hummingbird is about this huge forest being consumed by a fire. All the animals in the forest come out and they are transfixed as they watch the forest burning and they feel very overwhelmed, very powerless, except this little hummingbird. It says, ‘I’m going to do something about the fire!’ So it flies to the nearest stream and takes a drop of water. It puts it on the fire, and goes up and down, up and down, up and down, as fast as it can. In the meantime, all the other animals, much bigger aimals like the elephant with a big trunk that could bring much more water are standing there helpless. And they are saying to the hummingbird, ‘What do you think you can do? You are too little. This fire is too big. Your wings are too little and your beak is so small that you can only bring a small drop of water at a time.’ But as they continue to discourage it, it turns to them without wasting any time and it tells them, ‘I am doing the best I can.’ (Atleast he was doing something, right 👍?)

And that to me is what all of us should do. We should always be like a hummingbird. I may be insignificant, but certainly don’t want to be like the animals watching the planet go down the drain. I will be a hummingbird; I will do the best I can.”

In the next decade and many more to come, you likewise can choose to be a hummingbird – to do something however tiny it may seem. Will you?

Take time…, step back into time, therein you’ll find grace unspeakable, thro’ the: good moments, the hardships, the foolish decisions, the limitations, the brokenness, the victories, the celebrations, etc, it all was, only by and through GRACE.

For me, all I can reckon is that grace has carried me and covered me and only through grace can I courageously stand and bear witness of God’s steadfast love & enduring mercy, His natural goodness and unequalled faithfulness. I’ve clearly and perfectly been borne on Eagle’s wings – Exodus 19:4.

If the Lord tarries, see you in the next decade 👋👋.

Blessed beyond measure!!

Spiritual Warfare Part II: A Letter to the Church – Deep Repentance & Intercession

Greetings and love from Philadelphia.

Sometimes, actually most times, carrying a message of repentance is no mean feat ‘cos it’s a message people rarely welcome with open hands. You come first hand with the recognition and understanding as to why Jonah was running away from his assignment. When God revealed to me the need to stress this message of repentance and intercession, I was actually minding my own biz and didn’t want at the least to be the one to convey such messages. Listeners and readers will be fumbling with your source of knowledge, your age and experience, with your efficiency to deliver it and why you even think to begin with you are qualified to convey it and as such won’t be receptive.

I have already seen counter-reactions to my first article and I was ready for that, had actually anticipated it.

Yes, a message of repentance can powerfully connote judgement and condemnation to some depending on how one reads it and chooses to internalize it. It’ll appear like the carrier of the message is judging others before examining themselves, but there comes a point in time when you either choose to please man and disobey God or act in obedience to His word/ assignment.

If surely God could choose to use experience as the sole quantifying determinant to our qualification, then some of us wouldn’t have the courage to least of all hold a pen, leave alone even post the end result of His workmanship using the pen to a public domain, ‘cos sometimes when I genuinely look at myself, it almost and purely feels like I’m not fully and properly qualified for anything. Indeed His quantifying determinant by and large remains ‘obedience’ and ‘brokenness.’ But if God could use a donkey…Well, I do 21 a lot. Completed one of fast few weeks ago and after a short break, had been doing another 21 for just asking God to draw me closer to Him and boom!!! on the 12th day, comes the assignment… and I contended with it, dilly-dallied with it, gave all the excuses and for slightly more than a week, I could just hit a wall. I’d be doing something completely unrelated to prayer and Daddy would just gently remind me that that I had put His project in the back seat. Tired of fighting, I wrote the 1st article and with trembling, posted it. So, here’s the 2nd:

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‘People of God who are called by the Father’s name, the Lord wants us back on our knees into deep repentance and in intercession for the Bride.’

So, let’s get in.

Before getting any deeper, please read Spiritual Warfare part I if you haven’t done so before going any further with this one. P/S this is a loooong article.

Today, I tackle: Intercession, Repentance and Spiritual Warfare as well as Prayer.


What is intercession? According to Merriam Webster, it is prayer, petition or entreaty in favor of another. So in essence, an intercessor is one who prays, offers petitions and entreats in favor of another.

What qualities mark an intercessor?




-They understand grace.

-They operate in faith and pray with authority.

-Are called to live a disciplined life and pray with holiness. 1Chronicles 29:19

-See things through God’s eyes – the world & situations as God does and gets a burden. Nehemiah 1:1-5.

-They are marked by God. Ezekiel 8:1

-Earns God’s favor. Job 42:8 and 1 Samuel 7:5-9

-Are sacrificing on matters time and even resources. Philemon 1:22

-They have a relationship with the Father. James 4:7

-They pray out of love for others. 1 Peter 4:8

-They pray for hearts to change.

-They pray for unity. 2 Corinthians 13:1

-They volunteer.

-They have to have a balanced degree of compassion and objectivity. If they lean so much towards objectivity while praying, they may end up having a detachment from empathy and truly feeling and understanding the situation. Yet, if they lean so much towards compassion, their prayer may end up being too much emotional without the necessary balance.

-They are obedient to God. 15:7

-They pray for truth to be revealed and for right agreements. 2Cor 13.1

-They have a tangible evidence of God’s hand. 1 Corinthians 2:4

-An intercessor can change the mind of God. Genesis 18:23-33

-They are willing to risk and sacrifice their own benefits for the sake of others. Exodus 32:31-32, 2 Samuel 24:17, Acts 7:60.

-The heart of an intercessor is that of mercy, humility and service.

One moment, a few weeks ago, I went into prayer and after a while, was led to pray for the Church and for its leadership as well as for some countries. I couldn’t understand the deal then and I just broke into uncontrollable tongues yet then, I had thought it would be a one-time thing but alas! Yes, it wasn’t completely in my agenda.


I have recently learnt something new – that you don’t repent yokes. You repent sin, but you break yokes.

Vivid mem’ries of me locking myself in a friend’s house back in 2011/ 2012 in Kangemi as I repented and broke foundational barriers once again come into play even as I think about THE COST of deliverance. I had just completed reading the book ‘Rebuilding your Life’s Foundation’ by Ken Yapha and had been daily repenting the sins of my fore fathers, had been denouncing any spiritual attachment to names given me, had been detaching myself from any curses and had been cancelling every effect, control and manipulation of evil altars and incantations offered that may have been in operation in my life.

But, why all this struggle, you ask?

Now Christians have been taught that after the salvation prayer and some nursery-school kind of repentance (where someone’s heart sometimes isn’t fully set in complete turn-around), everything else will be rosy. Doesn’t however work that way ‘cos the kind of spiritual battle that we witness in the 2nd heavens gives us a clue on what it means to possess Kingdom benefits.

Daniel 10:13-14 But the prince of the kingdom of Persia withstood me one and twenty days: but, lo, Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me; and I remained there with the kings of Persia. Now I am come to make thee understand what shall befall thy people in the latter days: for yet the vision is for many days.Now, there’s probably a difference between Daniel and us. The Bible doesn’t record this man as one who lived in sin. In fact, he was a prophet who in the supernatural, saw visions and prayed three times a day. My question is, if the prince of Persia had the audacity to try and intercept the prayers of such a holy man, how much more of Christians living and walking in sin?

So, if you come from a family who say, four generations backwards thoroughly participated in idolatry and occultism, those are very deep roots and beyond you confessing your own sins, you’ll have to confess theirs as well and not only that. You will have to completely detach yourself from their Spiritual effects.

Been listening of late to lots of testimonies by John Ramirez and also watching Sid Roth’s ‘It’s Supernatural’ quite often of late. I must say, coupled with my own personal experiences and battles fought and won, they have been very beneficial.

To be cognizant of and to appreciate grace, you must deeply know what it means to be a sinner and forgiven. To appreciate abundance, you must first know what it practically means to lack. To appreciate life, you must have sometimes, not all have come close to death. To appreciate deliverance and restoration, you must sometimes practically understand what it means to be in bondage. To understand violence in prayer (taking it by force/ holy anger), then you must practically know what it means to be almost denied what is rightfully yours through spiritual theft. To appreciate health, you may need to practically understand what it means to be unhealthy and its not so glossy effects: either sick or simply unfit. And to ultimately understand some of the secrets of the Kingdom, you may need a knowledge and a glimpse of how the satanic kingdom operates, plus its deadly secrets.

This great deceiver has unleashed all the arsenals in his armory. Of course, God’s arsenals overrules his by far… yet how is it that not all Christians live victorious lives? This guy has now invented ways in which he can steal, kill and destroy long before a child is even grown enough to fully understand who they are. I remember listening to this story of this lady who had been living with her grandma over the school holidays narrate how at around 8 years of age, one night she had witnessed her grandma enchant deadly incantations towards the moon, as well as witness her dead immersed in the activity of astral projection. The small girl was meant to be an heir in that as it was to be revealed to her much later. Whether you like it or not, unless you have broken nasty generational foundations four generations backwards and completely detached yourself from their effects, your freedom, even if you claim salvation is half-baked. Ask any Christian who only got saved and did nothing about these yokes. They will tell you what I mean, in case you and I up to this juncture are not on a similar frequency.

I have keenly been studying my surroundings and have noted a few strongholds which I would love to share:

Territorial/ Geographical powers.

These are evil powers that rule certain geographical areas, taking its victims captive. Here, I have witnessed the spirit of lawlessness, unconcern for spiritual matters, pervasive homosexuality and its related sister, indirect slavery as well as racism (haven’t seen one directed towards me but I’ve observed victims) and all these are patterns/ cycles that only a Christian with the Spirit of discernment can see that indeed, they are deep spiritual issues. On October 31st and the entire week before, people were deep immersed in the Halloween mood: costumes, candy – lots of free candies and chocolates for kids, parties and interior décor consisting of different kinds of skeletons is what dominated the air: head and backbone skeletons, hand skeletons… and some décor at the entrance of buildings that were to welcome guests home were samples of orange pumpkins with decorative words engraved on them as ‘Home sweet haunted home’. One that’s still etched in my mem’ry is a décor at the entrance of one building made up of hay and a cross, perfectly exemplifying a grave. I so love interior design and décor, but since when did such demonic tools become decorative? All these are normal to most people here. You only need to live and work in a place where one is completely barred from speaking about spiritual matters in the office. Yes, you only need to open your deep spiritual eyes to be filled with compassion at the magnitude of bondage and oppression that people have ignorantly welcomed with both hands and accepted to live in, with the lie that there’s nothing they can do to reverse the situation. One of the things that you can lure me with is chocolate, but nowadays I beg your pardon-oh, I’m getting more alert. I have ever broken a dry fast years ago because I fell into chocolate temptation. And so, I have been debating within myself what the problem is with eating these free candies and chocolates offered all so philanthropically. Well, I don’t believe in Halloween and have been vocal about it. So, as the debate waged on deep inside of me, like a week and a half or so ago, there were these chocolates in plenty… and I was smiling to myself as they moved closer home. Storyline was, the chocolates were received from church yet there’s one thing that the Holy Spirit whispered to me just as I was opening the first chocolate wrapper that evening. Audibly so, He whispered to me, ‘food offered to idols.’ That was the last thing that could ever have crossed my mind in that instant. I thought such things existed only during Daniel’s and Paul’s times.

Back in my home country, I know tribalism and corruption to be a wild fire of a problem, and if you thought they don’t have a spiritual dimension, you are mistaken. In most African societies, poverty and occultism are deadly strongholds that have gotten a stable foothold (but that can be broken) and if genuinely, we are to be honest with ourselves, if you are one who hails from a place with neither the effects of these two, examining four generations backwards, then you really are a lucky chap. Please remember our first lesson from the first article – everything is Spiritual. So let’s guard that even as we move on. Until the day people, including Christians will stop politicking, gossiping and complaining, thereby entertaining captivity demons, and instead, bring these issues with holiness before the Lord and before His throne of mercy, nothing is bound to change. The Spiritual will always overrule the social, the political plus the economical. So, you think the law makers were out of their minds when they passed into law that bill that seeks to oppress the masses and milk the country dry? And what of toxic substances finding their way into staple foods? You think it’s only for political gains? Please dig deeper. It was all initiated somewhere, and as I’ve said time and again, the spiritual will always overrule, whether good or bad. Bad will especially do when good people just observe and do nothing about it. How painfully interesting the modern day techniques and strategies the devil is employing and that now, he doesn’t have to make you leave your country to get you into captivity. Today, people are held hostages in their own country. Babylon will come find you right where you are, you don’t have to exit. Very painful indeed!

The Spirit of Fear.

This one is a deadly one and I only know and recognize at a personal level what I’ve had to deal with several years, say 8 years back in form of this spirit. I have also recently learned that whenever there’s an evil spiritual attack on a prospective host, this spirit is normally the first to be unleashed before the related cohorts come in. Otherwise put, fear always has to prepare the way for the smooth operation of its colleagues. It is so deadly such that for one to overcome it, they require the tripartite combination of: power, love and a sound mind all at once. Meaning this spirit’s perfect physical manifestation is a combination of: powerlessness, hate and chaos.

The Jezebel spirit.

Let’s talk a bit about the Jezebel spirit. An insight into 1 Kings chapters 18 & 19 during the times of prophet Elijah gives us a bare display on how Jezebel operated then in a bid to completely eliminate the prophets of the Lord and that’s exactly what she is doing to date. The main markers of this spirit are: lying, mocking, causing chaos and killing the voice of God (prophets) just to name but some. Apparently, this spirit hates prophets, prayer and Spiritual warfare. The deadly spirit is equally responsible for: lust, immorality and the downfall of men, corporations and Churches and its results can always be seen in stagnation as well as lack of growth or blatantly, an irrevocable downfall. I will let you do your own personal research on how this spirit operates since I think it’s a knowledge worth arming oneself with. I’ve done very extensive research on this spirit which gave me an elaborate answer to the question I repetitively raised in my first article. And I’ll let you do your own.

You can also further read Rev 2:20-23 to see what the Lord says He has against those who entertain Jezebel, which today manifests in a spirit form, unless they repent of her ways. This must be a deadly one for the Lord Himself to even give a personal warning concerning it. Think about it for a moment…

Well, as Christians, we have the power within ourselves of choice – to choose not to be partakers of activities that stagnate Kingdom advancement and to also detach ourselves through complete discipline, constant repentance and Spirit-led intercession.

A real-life story is told of how one American singer’s concert was once thwarted in Houston after a few Christians bombarded the heavens with a cry to the Lord which ran parallel to the concert, since they knew and had observed a pattern after his concerts of suicidal manifestations and other untold vices. And guess what happened, the sound system failed and let’s say, the concert was unsuccessful. You, prayer warrior called into intercession have power within yourself, and it doesn’t matter your numbers. What ultimately counts is obedience and God always, will always honor it.


Joel 2:12-32 We see the outcomes of fast and repentance as: shame being lifted up as well as the Spirit of the Lord being poured on the Lord’s servants: both men and women. We also see an activation of the prophetic, plus dreams and visions being birthed, only as a result of fast, repentance and prayer.

One thing that I know about restoration and especially from bondage and that I have observed as well as experienced is that one always has to individually or corporately come to a point where they are spent and tired with the condition of their lives or the prevailing geographical circumstance. That way, they can pursue the only one sure way of breaking that barrier. Before then, they will just languish in it until the day they decide ‘I’ve had enough!’ or ‘We’ve had enough!’ God, as we know, is not the kind to force anyone into either salvation or repentance. He has given us a free will to choose. Just as similar as, God doesn’t force anyone to be infilled with His Spirit; it however has to come from the depths of a hungry hungry soul.

I would love to illustrate some of the spiritual warfare I’ve had to contend with at the work place, in residential places, in the family etc., hopefully I will highlight a few more as this journey goes on. The beautiful thing is that as long as I’m prayerfully grounded, every impending attack being designed to be waged towards me is always revealed to me early enough before it takes root plus the instructions on how to go about it: whether it’s engaging an Esther’s fast gear or worship or midnight prayers etc. I have thereby come to a point where I can walk into a room and tell you there’s a foreign evil spirit blanketing and dominating that area just through discernment. Yes, I can now take just one look at an animal and tell you that it is playing a 2nd role of a monitoring spirit, just beyond being an ordinary animal. And the same applies to humans… that’s why I don’t take very lightly someone constantly monitoring me, means they have an agenda and assignment over my life, knowingly or unknowingly and which by the time I always know about is always already miserably thwarted.

Please allow me to give one example. In the estate where I lived along Thika road, I was once automatically woken up 3 times in just one night to pray: at 12 midnight, at 3am and at 6am, without setting an alarm at all. At midnight and at 3am, the Holy Spirit led me to pray against geographical powers in that place and within no time, I was setting on fire every evil altar in that place as well as uprooting every evil thing that is buried in the land affecting people living there. I hadn’t at all planned to pray that way. At 6 am, did the same prayers and as I continuously prayed, I could hear a very huge flock of ducks quacking as they walked away. They left the place and I could hear them walk in a large group quacking, (trust me they were not physical ducks) leaving until they completely left and their voices faded into thin air. The instruction normally is, go to the bottomless pit and don’t return again. I wouldn’t be surprised if no one else heard the ducks. The thing is, when our spiritual ears, eyes and hearts are activated, we will be able to hear, see and discern things that ordinary ears, eyes and hearts cannot. There are 3 basic areas from whence attacks are launched: land, air and water.

Back on restoration. See, what some people may not get is that if the enemy can’t possess you, he will work on oppressing you. Let me also mention 1st that demons are illegal entities and for them to be fully functional on earth, they must get a legal ground of operation e.g. getting into a person or an animal. Which gets me into my next point – how these spirits and demons gain access into people’s lives, manipulating and working through them? They do through: sin, yokes incompletely broken, living in darkness and ignorance, when eyes don’t see and ears can’t hear and hearts can’t discern. They also gain access through broken or unprotected hedges.

2 Peter 3:9 The LORD is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

Again, some people have been taught that they don’t have to repent before getting to pray. The thing is getting before the presence of the Lord with an unrepentant heart sets you for untold counter attacks, considering the kind of warfare that we witnessed earlier before in Daniel in the 2nd heaven. God with His immeasurable grace will listen. Question is, even if you were to receive the answer/ blessing yet continue living in sin, how long can and will you sustain that blessing with the counter-attacks at play? Remember there’s also a gate – the gate of leaking blessings.

Another new thing that I have recently learned and that I would love to highlight is that there are some kinds of spirits that for them to leave a person so one is totally set free, require a willing and intentional cooperation of the host, not exclusively an anointing oil. Until that person intentionally decides to detach themselves from immorality and lust as well as the atmosphere that support the conducive breeding spot of such spirits, then it’s all a waste of anointing oil.

God wants us, the Church back on our knees in Deep repentance and intercession.


And now to one of my favoritestestest.

Whenever I step into a new place: territory, market place, hotel, country etc., I always declare Psalms 24 over it and re-dedicate the grounds to God, just in case there be powers claiming the place. (Refer my notes on territorial/ geographical spirits). This I have to do before I fall prey to the rhythms of the place. Secondly, I possess the place including its divine benefits for me as per Joshua 1:3. Thirdly and lastly, I bless the place and pray over it. Anyone who has ever shared a hotel room with me during our discipleship retreats will tell you that the 1st thing I do the moment I step in the hotel room is hold hands with my roommate and pray over the place, claim it under the total authority of God’s presence, re-dedicate it and lastly break any previous dedications that do not align with the Spirit of God in that place. They say experience is the best teacher. So, this I oftenly do as a response to a nasty experience I had several years back from a hotel room in Malindi (religious tour too), yet whose experience, initiated there, was afterwards a near-death experience. By His mercy and grace, I escaped by whiskers. So again, let’s just guard the 1st lesson I mentioned – everything is spiritual. Never forget to hallow the grounds you are standing upon at any one given moment.

So, How do we Pray?

I’m definitely revisiting an article on my blog that I wrote some time back.

I once had a vision on prayer. As I was sleeping (in that moment when one’s subconscious, in between being awake and complete sleep), I saw this intensively bright light which connected my heart to Heaven. I felt like a Jacob when he saw angels ascending to and descending from heaven. Then I heard this voice audibly say, “Two things determine answers to prayer: WHEN and HOW you pray.”

Well, the factors above inform the basis upon which I write on prayer today.

  1. WHEN

‘When’, I believe cuts across ‘what time’ as well as ‘triggered by what’.

What time – ‘when’ did the Lord Jesus pray?

-Matthew 14:23,25 “And when he had sent the multitudes away, he went up into a mountain apart to pray: and when the evening was come, he was there alone….and in the fourth watch of the night, Jesus went unto them, walking on the sea.” This prayer must have been throughout from the evening right up to before the fourth watch of the night when He walked up to his disciples – by estimation around 3, 4am.

-Mark 1:35 “And in the morning, rising up a great while before day, he went out, and departed in a solitary place, and there prayed.

-He prayed before undertaking given tasks e.g before choosing His disciples, He prayed all night – Luke 6:12-13.

-Luke 14:19 He prayed before eating food or breaking bread

– Luke 24:30.-He prayed prior to being tempted, Mathew 4:2. He had fasted for forty days and forty nights.

-He prayed when in pain and agony, Luke 22:41-44, well equipped with knowledge of the great sacrifice that lay ahead that He was to make on the cross.

These are a few examples of when Jesus prayed.

The Bible is not only keen and specific on matters numbers and seasons, but also exact timings. The Bible is so deliberate in giving us precise indications of times when certain: deliverance, victories, miracles and even judgement took place – a call to pray during times such as these.

How about looking at ‘when’ – the exact timings when miracles, deliverance, even judgement took place in the Bible.

-Paul and Silas were delivered from prison, Acts 16:25-26 at midnight.

-Peter and John administered healing at the gate of the temple called Beautiful, Acts3:1-8 at the ninth hour.

-The veil getting torn at the temple and saints being awoken from sleep, Matthew 27:46-53 was preceded by darkness from the sixth to the ninth hour.

-David arose to give thanks, Psalms 119:62 at midnight.

-Cornelius received a vision, Acts 10:3 about the ninth hour of the day.

-The Egyptian first born sons were smitten to death, Exodus 11:4 about midnight.

-When Jehovah didn’t answer King Saul either by dreams or by urim or by prophets, he resorted to consulting a woman that had a spirit of a python, 1Samuel 28 by night. Through the spirit of Samuel who was already dead, Saul gets the message of the Lord having rent the kingdom out of his hand as well a prediction of his death together with his sons on the following day, which was executed as per the word of the spirit of Samuel.

I wonder though why the Bible is so deliberate in giving us precise indications of such timings. Is it for beautification or décor? Would they have been stated just for the sake of it? I mean if they didn’t serve any functional value? That’s upon you to personally think about and decide.

Much as I basically pray anywhere, anytime, I personally love my prayers and intercessions at the midnight hour – 1hour, 2hours, even 3 hours as led. And much as midnight is assumed to be the time of evil: invocations, incantations and practices, it also stands out as a calm time with minimal distractions when seeking the face of God.

Around four years ago, I dared God, and well, He honored me with a visitation right in my house. It was at the midnight hour, precisely 7 minutes past midnight. I wanted to hear His voice, I asked Him for His glory. I was nuts, I really was. Someone had told me without batting an eyelid that God doesn’t speak, but I believed the contrary. I asked God why He spoke to others and not me. Well, with a conversation that began at 2pm in the day, the guy appeared at 00:07. Again, this ran on persistence & obedience – I was directed on two specific worship songs to sing which I did: Oceans where feet may fail and Holy Spirit you are welcome here. Imagine singing the same two songs repetitively for close to two hours while kneeling? Well, on that day, He didn’t speak audible speech but coded language with signs. He got me dazed, made me lie with my face downwards. And the next thing? My bed shook terribly, I heard thunders, rumblings and saw light – these, three consecutive sequences. He served me a tiny dose of His glory. I hitherto still wonder if I would have contained the full splendor of His glory. Yet, this tiny dose was, for lack of better description, excitingly frightening and enough to make me not to switch off lights while I slept for the next 7 nights. My visitor didn’t wait for a glass of juice. Later on, 8 months later, He started speaking audibly to me.See? It all was initiated at the midnight hour.

  1. HOW

I view this as cutting across ‘the manner’ as well as ‘the strategy employed’.

How did Jesus pray?-Jesus prayed alone (Matthew 14:23 & Mk 1:35), with a chosen few (Mk 5:37, Mk 1:35-36) and with the crowds e.g before eating.

-He prayed in fasting and sometimes retreated alone to the mountain/ wilderness throughout the night. (Luke 5:16 & Luke 6:12)

-Jesus always addressed His prayers to God and prayed in accordance with His will.

-He prayed kneeling, He prayed with strong crying and tears Hebrews 5:7, He prayed with love and compassion, He prayed with a thankful heart (John 11:41, Matthew 11:25 & Luke 10:21).

The Lord’s Prayer still remains our greatest guide. Matthew 6:9-13

So, how should we pray?

-Our prayers should always be directed to God.

-They should be made through Jesus. In His name – John 14:6.

-In accordance with God’s will.

-Making declarations using scriptures related to and that address the given situation.

-Articulating the request with clarity and precision. (Targeted prayer)

-Having a clear focused prayer strategy.

-Through meditation.-Getting engaged in the night watch.

-In a closet, in secret, Mathew 6:6.

-Employing the prayer of agreement as led.

-Persistently – day and night, Luke 18.-Guided by the Spirit.

-With thanksgiving.

-In worship, with praise and giving God all the honor that’s due Him. “For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory, forever and ever, amen.”

-In asking for revelations and His guidance so we can pray with knowledge.


What of Spiritual knowledge and understanding, why is it vital for a believer?

Did you know that your life and your living is at the mercy of how well you have mastered the operation of the Spiritual? Not your level of education, not your experience, not the magnitude of your social network or influence, not even the strength of your financial status, but ultimately in how excellently you understand, perceive and respond with the supernatural.

Apostle Joshua Selman puts it this way, “Your life and destiny is at the mercy of the understanding you have about the Spirit realm, alongside comprehending the tools at your disposal to produce the outcomes you desire. It’s not just all up to God. My life and your life, my finances and your finances, my well-being is at the mercy of this understanding and the ability to piece together the tools that have been provided by the word of God to help manipulate realities until my physical outcome is consistent with the word of God.”

And why is Repentance all that important?

As we read through the messages to the angels of the seven Churches in Revelations 2 & 3, there are two clear and consistent messages, repetitively given to them: Repentance and Overcoming, to the Churches in Ephesus, Smyrna, Pergamos, Thyatira, Sardis, Philadelphia and Laodicea. Also, the Lord Himself sets us an example that even before Christ began His ministry, there had to be a fore-runner, John the Baptist whose message primarily to the masses was that of Repentance. And just as is stated in Revelations, “He that has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit saith unto the Churches.”

1 John 1:8, 10 If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word is not in us.Only one thing can keep us from accessing mercy and forgivenesspride.

Truth is, we constantly sin: in our thoughts, heart meditations, motives, words, silent judgements, attitudes and actions yet the great Purifier remains as merciful as ever.

1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

Psalms 103:12 As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

LISTEN OH YE CHILDREN OF GOD, the Father longs to redeem the image of the Bride even among the heathen.

It is thereby a season to get down on our knees and to call on His name.

2 Chronicles 7:14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.


I so love Abraham’s heart and compassion as indicated in Genesis 18:16-33 which led him to plead for Sodom. So, are we similarly mandated.

Basing on all that I’ve been tackling in this article, the solutions to all of our urgent and inflicting issues must and will indeed exclusively emanate from the spiritual, that’s why my letter is addressed to the Church. You are the Church, I am the Church, We are the Church.

We’re soon hitting the ground running…still on prep mode.

We’re soon plunging those feet on intercession for different nations and for the Bride. The assignment has been issued and confirmed as well. What a loving God we serve. He’s the best Teacher ever. Ever been in a class with a teacher who’s willing to repeat something even when you can’t understand? This is the kind of Teacher I walk with on a daily basis, who with love, re-confirms everything He says and every assignment He gives as well. And we ain’t putting our guards down, not even when every foe be vanquished.

If genuinely interested to join us, check out my previous and first article on Spiritual Warfare Part I on how to plug in.

If you choose to join us incognito, please equally pray for the peace of Jerusalem, simply ‘cos we’re commanded to – Psalms 122:6, as well as for the salvation of Israel, even as Paul desired – Romans 10:1.

But wait! Have you ever wondered how a blemish less, wrinkle less and spotless Bride looks like? It’s my only desire that I be found to fit this description when my Master, the Bridegroom returns.

Keep it here for more periodic articles.

In my next article, I will be tackling Spiritual Weapons for Spiritual Warfare.

Calvary love,

Spiritual Warfare – Part I

Why is the Church beginning to look just like the world?

Been a minute!

Yes, I did take a back seat a li’l bit. You can’t hear while talking at the same time or all the time. Sometimes all you need to do is simply shut it up, keep silence and observe. And in observation, you get fresh and in depth perspectives.

I have been meditating on the beauty and character of God: His goodness, mercy, love, faithfulness and well, I would write 3 full pages plus … how beautiful are you Oh Lord, and how beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace and bring glad tidings of good things.

Spiritual warfare 3

Well, anyone who has stuck with me long enough knows that I speak so passionately about Purpose (Identity) and Prayer. I however have two mystical areas that deeply fascinate me – Deliverance and the Supernatural. Beginning today, I embark on writings that focus on the Spiritual warfare bit. I’ll be unveiling snippets of this periodically, unleashing some of the secrets that I have learned along the path of life that are not immediately visible to bare eyes or bare ears, plus the secret lethal arsenals of all time that I have learnt of over my short stint in life that God has granted me breath, and of course tried them as well. I will also be giving illustrations of my life journey and some of the spiritual battles that I have faced and how I maneuvered around the battle field.

Truth be said, most people, actually most Christians are in captivity, are unhappy and the greatest deceiver who is the father of lies is on the prowl and rejoicing as well. Even in the Church, this great deceiver got guys real good.

Today is just warm up, so I won’t delve deep, much as this article may appear long.

Lesson 1:

Anything that manifests in the natural is already complete in the supernatural. Otherwise put, before anything manifests in the physical at all for you to see it, its enactment is already complete in the spiritual. Just guard this lesson as we move on. Sometimes it takes practical experiences for it to sink in better and deeper.

So, what has really driven me to do this? I remember one time recently on Instagram stumbling upon an observation by one highly anointed minister saying, “A lot of the problems in secular society are slowly showing up in churches,”. Never thought much about it then. And yet, in a span of only 2 months, I have seen 3 different ministers in different far-apart locations say, “the Church is beginning to look just like the world.” Does that bother you? If it doesn’t, it does bother me, real-time.

All I see is people struggling and unhappy, Christians looking powerless and defeated.

Well, if you choose to walk this journey with me, we’ll tackle issues: Deep repentance, Breaking foundational barriers, Church and secularism, Living a life of spiritual revelation, Gates altars and foundations, Spiritual weapons, Destiny, Taking dominion and Passion prayer just to name some as the Spirit reveals and guides us.

There are things I bet you 100% people will forever grapple to comprehend ‘cos they can only be learned thro’ revelation/ the Supernatural and thro’ one’s genuine hunger and thirst, not necessarily in Church, not even if you were to serve in Church ministry.

Today’s Church (community) has plenty of broken people. And if one broken person runs to find solace in another broken person, do you know the emerging result? Your guess is just as good as mine. So, two days ago, I posed this question to a sister, “Why do you think that the church is beginning to look just like the world?” Her answer wasn’t something I was prepared for. This is what she told me, “The mistake people do is that they run to the church for solace instead of running to Christ. Church (building) should not be a place people run to when they have problems. You can be in church your entire life and never ever have a real tangible relationship with Christ.”

Well, let’s get back on track. Do you feel like you are stagnating or that there’s no improvement in your life? Do you feel like God just placed you in the back burner and left? Are you almost giving up in life? This is gonna be a movement: of intercessory prayer, fast and take-back and if you wanna join this bandwagon, feel free.

We decree war at your doorstep king of lies!

Meanwhile, check out the following spirits at work in your life or family:

-Spirits of fear, anxiety, strife, depression, worry and despair.

-Spirits of stagnation, lack, poverty and slavery.

-Monitoring spirit.

-Familiar spirit.

-Territorial, geographical and marine powers.

-Spirits of sickness, infirmity, disease and premature death.

-Counterfeit spirit. I must high-light this one. A counterfeit always has to be something that’s so soo sooo similar to the original that if you were to put it next to the original, it’d almost be impossible to draw a line of contrast between the two, unless you are that Christian living a holy, undefiled life and one of revelation at that.

-Also, be alert towards star-hunters, destiny stealers, destiny destroyers, destiny diverters and destiny delayers.

-Spirits of immorality, idolatry/ vanity and seducing spirits.

Start praying against the above.

Here lies some of the crucial questions:

-How do you discern different spirits – false from true ones at that?

-What really makes the Church look like the world?

-Is it possible to fight the wrong enemy?

I’m genuinely tired of seeing Christians looking defeated.

If you wanna join this bandwagon again, I’ll be letting you know in a bit the agenda and how you can plug in.

And you cannot be part of this if all you think of is yourself: me, myself and I. Sometimes standing in the gap is all it takes to obtain one’s breakthrough.

All it takes is getting down on our knees: pray instead of pointing a finger, pray instead of gossiping, pray instead of laughing and scorning, pray instead of judging, pray instead of being sarcastic. Pray!! Intercede!! What if your breakthrough that you have been trusting God for all these years is merely attached to praying over that neighbor’s situation that you are ranting, laughing and being all sarcastic about? What if it was revealed to you that your breakthrough is simply 3 minutes away from your obedience in interceding over that which completely doesn’t concern you or indirectly does? With what kind of passion would you pray and intercede? Pray even for your enemies. Bless and do not curse.

Today’s Church has been bedeviled with competition, hate and disintegration. One would think that in an era where tech and communication is at a level as never experienced before, there won’t be bridges, but bridges are now even wider and longer than before. Indeed the end times are here with us already as highlighted in Matthew 24:

3 As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”

4 Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. 6 You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7 Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8 All these are the beginning of birth pains.

9 “Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10 At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11 and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12 Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13 but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

Look, the greatest commandment that to us has been given is love – to love God and to love our neighbors as we do ourselves, yet today as I silently pondered about this, I couldn’t help but see an underlying paradox especially as pertains him who is yet to find, understand and fully know himself/ herself. So, what about him who doesn’t love himself? What about him who doesn’t hold any value or a feeling of self-worth towards themselves? What of that person who wishes they were somebody else other than themselves? What of that person who has the audacity to boldly declare that ‘I don’t like myself and I don’t like my life.’ And what of that person who unknowingly and persistently is struggling to imitate others – a very deep sign of misplaced Identity. Question is, whom are they supposed to love their neighbor as? Therein lies one of the reasons secularism or Christlessness is slowly sneaking into Church.

Yet, even so, we are called into a place of standing in the gap. Never under-estimate the power of a prayer offered with love by a saint.

1 John 4:20 NIV “Whoever claims to love God yet hates a brother or sister is a liar. For whoever does not love their brother and sister, whom they have seen, cannot love God, whom they have not seen.”

Well, as I silently sat and deeply thought about the whole issue of the Church slowly appearing like the world and of issues such as deliverance, I stumbled upon a truth and a revelation that: ‘We will never wholly actualize our full potential, purpose and Identity if we’re under bondage. Until we experience full-blown deliverance and liberation, we are living in deceit of ourselves even if we claim salvation.’


-Souls can be added to the Kingdom and be effectively discipled,

-People and Christians at that can genuinely and fully be delivered from bondage,

-The Church won’t reflect secularism in it,

-After equipment with salvation, deliverance and proper discipleship, people can walk the talk and pass it on to generations coming,

-After genuine deliverance and getting blessed, we’ll earnestly, diligently, intentionally and with fear and trembling allow God to work through our characters as we work on our salvation,

-People can intentionally re-learn one of the toughest lessons that we always think we’ve understood – love,


-There won’t be any more sense of defeat and purposelessness among Christians.

-There won’t be competition in Church.

-True Justice will be upheld.

-Lastly, and which is the most powerful, Love and Revival will come and overpower the Church. Genuine love and Revival!

So, my team and I embark on intercession. This movement will be functioning on 3 major pillars; 2 which will be unveiled in due time. We begin with intercessory prayers and will precisely be praying for different nations and the Church as we feel led.

All our teachings as we learn, disciple, preach, blog and listen will be Biblical and Revelation supported.

And, how will we go about it? – Agenda 1

-We will first work on ourselves: deep sanctification and self-identification as we move along the way. There’s this saying of late that has been doing the rounds that, ‘the greatest project that one can ever work on is themselves.’ From a certain angle, it makes perfect sense for we cannot give what we don’t have. And we cannot have what we haven’t diligently worked for.

-So, we’ll equally be activating our spiritual swords for personal and family take back even as we clean up.

-We’ll hold each other accountable on reading the Word as well as on praying and actualizing this project.

-We’ll undertake the required assignment for the season. In this case 1, interceding for different nations as led and fundamentally for the Bride.

So who qualifies to participate?

Anybody: any nationality, any gender, literally anyone, as long as you are born again. If deeply interested and you haven’t received Christ as your Savior as yet and is willing to do so, don’t worry, we will walk you through the process. So, kindly plug in.

Meanwhile, refer to the 3 articles: The Violent Taketh it by Force, Praying with Knowledge, and Passion Prayer that are on myblog page and that I have posted before on this blog website, for they’ll give an insight on what to expect.

And how does one get plugged-in?

If genuinely interested to be part of this, please send me a message on Fb messenger – Iryn Airyn, or DM me on Instagram – @iryn_airyn or send me an email using the contact sheet on this blog website indicating your name, email add and why you wanna plug in. Until 05th November 23:59 EAT/ 15:59 EST, we will be open to receiving interested candidates. 5 days to go!!

So, if you decide to participate in this, start right away with prayerfully covering yourself and entire family against the spirits of retaliation/ revenge as well as fiercely guarding yourself from the spirit of offense. Refer a friend to refer a friend to refer a friend.

It’s all about Restorative prayers and Sustainable Transformational knowledge on the Kingdom.

Matthew 11:12 And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffereth violence, and the violent take it by force. King James Version (KJV)

In the next article on Spiritual Warfare part II, I will officially commence by tackling How to Pray and Deep Repentance.


“People generally fall into one of three groups: the few who make things happen, the many who watch things happen, and the overwhelming majority who have no notion of what happens. Every person is either a creator of fact or a creature of circumstance. He either puts color into his environment, or, like a chameleon, takes color from his environment.” – Dr. Myles Munroe


Plug in. See you there.

Ephesians 6:12

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood,

but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world,

against spiritual wickedness in high places.

King James Version (KJV)

Exceptional Affirmation.

🎷 Nimejipata ndani ya upendo wako,

Umekuwa kwangu, mapumziko.🎙

Neema yako🎤, yanitosha,

Nikiwa nawe, mimi niko 📯 huru. x2


🎶 Yale umetenda Baba, yote ni makuu,

Maana wayatenda kwa upendo 🥁.

Yale unasema Baba 🎹, yote ni kweli,

Maana pia wayasema kwa upendo🎸.

(Wewe ni Zaidi – Erick Smith).

This song was on solo rewind 🎧 last evening.

Remember the last time you put on music, just shut your eyes, adjusted some ‘good enough’ volume, sank back in your seat then simply basked in the awe of the message as the mélange of chords and notes, tune and beats, melody and harmony beautifully consumed you, ushering you into a whole new realm of perfect peace – an atmosphere you wished wouldn’t come to an end?

Yesterday evening the Lord kept whispering in my ears, “I love you, Irene.” This gotta be one of the whispers I’ve heard from Him the most. And usually whenever He whispers that, I normally simply reply, “Thank you, Daddy”, including even moments He whispers that when my current situation seem not to align with His words. Yesterevening was however an exceptional one. My Friend was just too ‘extra!’ 1st time it sounded normal and okay, 2nd time, still okay. 3rd time and I was getting jittery, like almost telling Him, “God, You know that I know this,” then it hit me that even if I hid it, held back the words, He could still see my heart. 4th time and I started to relax and let the message get in and find a firm footing in the very core of my soul. So here I was: walking along the way, at work – in the front desk, while walking around the garage, on the rooftop, and much as they were sporadic and within unexpected intervals, it all so served a very timely purpose. I learnt by this time not to push the message aside however many number of times He was gonna repeat it. And in a span of 4hrs, whispering the same message 5 times or slightly more, He ensured that He hammered it ’till it hit home. Never known so much peace that makes turbulence with immediate effect, quit the scene without having a second gaze at its back.

And with this, I similarly extend this message to you who is reading this right now – here’s to being loved with an everlasting love. Stop, slow down abit… please let that sink in.

We are loved…exceptionally loved and affirmed; never doubt that for even a single moment. Comes a time when He has to personally make His presence tangible so as to remind us of His greatest gift to mankind.

Jeremiah 31:3

NLT Long ago the Lord said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.”

HCSB The Lord appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore, I have continued to extend faithful love to you.

Unfailing love = loving kindness, loving devotion, constant love, gracious love, mercy.

The 🎼🎵song above is in Kiswahili. Below is its contextual translation (not word by word).

I have found myself consumed in Your love,

That to me, has been rest untold.

Your grace is all so sufficient for me,

When I’m with You, I’m oh, so free.


Whatever You have done Father, is all so great 💪💪,

Because You do them with love.

Whatever You have said Father, is all so true,

All because You equally say them with love.





Like the Horn of an Unicorn

But my horn shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn. Psalms 92:10

Unicorn 2

I grew up listening to a lot of rhumba and country 🎻🎤🎸🥁🎧 from a very tender age. Coming from a family of rhythm lovers, we as children were exposed to a diversity of genres of melodies. Some of the very vivid memories I have of my childhood are a music turntable and an authentic collection of LP records that gave birth to an afro-library of legends as Franco Lwambo Luanzo Mikiadi, TP Ok Jazz, Super Mazembe, Mbilia Bel, Sam Mangwana, Tabu Ley Rochereau; all mixed with a Western cowboy collection that majorly informed rhythms by the great legend Jim Reeves – carols as well as an endless playlist of poetic love rhythms. I also remember my dad hum some of these tunes along as they played and he is the silent, cool, laid-back guy; very gentle, warm demeanor, kind hearted and with a very soft spot for his off springs. The kind that avoids confrontations by all means. I love my dad, not the kind you will find on a dance floor (I don’t think it’s ‘cos he got no moves), but one who truly treasures his ever green collection plus his uninterrupted peaceful time listening to this endless collection and replaying them back and forth as though they don’t inject monotony in his soul. No! they didn’t. The evergreen, or so, they were called. I bet I am a true daughter of my father. Oh! and the man loved and still does loves speakers, speakers of different sizes and varying potent.

And so I grew up idolizing Jim. His very unparalleled velvet vocals sent ripples of awe deep down my childhood spine. Ever heard older folks say there’s no music today? It’s ‘cos they acknowledge the authenticity and richness of what once was, both in lyrical content as well as vocal quality. Old is gold, they so say. Well, if you’ve listened to or read Jim Reeves’ lyrics, some, I actually think most, composed by Cindy Walker, unless you are deliberately blind, you wouldn’t miss the richness in depth, the poetic eloquence and harmony in its uttermost simplicity, the flowing and relatable story line in the ballads and the creativity that helplessly overrides the mood even without trying too hard.

Well, whereas I have retained some things, some have changed along the way. For instance. I do still love speakers. But just any speaker is no sensible speaker. It gotta be something that can clearly articulate some major chords, like produce reeeaal sound – no, not loud, but quality👌👌 sound. Yes, I gotta be able to feel the bass as well as the treble. And well, when I listen through it, I should be able to differentiate the melody from the harmonies. Not all speakers do this, unfortunately. Take the TV from me all you want but please never meddle with my music player and library – either music collection or books. And what has changed? Well, my playlist of course has evolved over time, not as much conformed, but rather transformed, resulting from the renewal of my mind.

Been meaning to write on this topic from last year. And so it was as I was studying Psalms 92 two days ago that I couldn’t once again help getting awestruck with the poetic candor of one of its writers – David. We come first hand to the recognition and experiencing the lyrical and poetic wit and authority of the writer in its most simplistic form, yet not any detached from what we can relate to, which gives the reader the compelling urge to dig deeper. We can’t by any means shove aside his relationship and intimacy with the Father. Throughout the Psalms written by him, we see different moods from celebratory and victorious to moments when he shares with his most intimate Friend of how he had been surrounded by enemies, yet of how assured he was that God would uphold him – Exalt his Horn, of how he had become a stranger to his own mother’s children. In Psalms 69:8-9, he writes, “I am a foreigner to my own family, a stranger to my own mother’s children; for zeal for your house consumes me;”…this man was legit. I so love David. On his canvas, he authentically paints a story of what not only was in the ancient days, but what a contemporary Christian as close to God can relate with. He once was the king of Israel, a close friend and confidant of God, a man after his own very heart. He knew rejection and he knew applause in equal measure. He deeply understood insignificance (as in when prophet Samuel came to anoint the sons of Jesse). He had tasted it all! Yet in all these, he recognized that his horn would be exalted by the Lord. He practically understood approval (I’m thinking of the songs that those ladies were singing in praise of David after he had killed Goliath, in comparison with king Saul) yet in equal breath had tasted opposition, having as king, while ruling, endured an attempted coup d’état by his very own son Absalom in close collaboration with Ahithophel. I remember when I was reading this episode in Samuel like 2 years ago, I could figure out David walking up the cliff while crying and saying, “Oh Lord, turn the wisdom of my adversaries into foolishness,” and I equally found myself crying as I read on. P.S: I rarely do this, and I am not a cry baby, but I really empathized with him then. Well, David deeply understood the goodness and faithfulness of God as we see through his poetic escapades, as well as what it purely means to be in love with God and to constantly seek and consult only Him. He was a shepherd, a king, a poet, a writer, a musician – a harp player, a dancer, a worshipper, a warrior, all these intertwined in one.

Let’s take chapter 2 of Psalms for example. In its most simplistic way, the poet wonders: “why are the nations in tumultuous agitation? And why do the peoples meditate a vain thing? …but He who dwelleth in the heavens shall laugh. The Lord shall have them in derision.”

When I read this the first time, it just hit me that God too does laugh 😊. This writer sure, must have been sooo close to God to have either watched him laugh or heard his laughter. Then it reminded me of the Scripture of Him singing over us. Yet, it is with this child like curiosity that I once asked my cousin last year, ‘Does God dance?’ And he couldn’t answer me. He found my question quite amusing and intriguing all at the same time…, like God dance?? Well, my mind can quite at times be so scriptive in thinking while reading, very illustrative and graphic during the pauses through my reads. Not only did I ask him such a question, I started googling scriptures that explicitly mentioned God ever dancing. Why did I ask, you wonder? I mean, let’s take a Sunday for instance, all these people over the earth worshipping me? If I was God I would exhibit all my indefatigable dance moves 💃💃💃, roll on the floor until my energy completely ebbs. I mean, like how can He be seated on the throne while innumerable guys are adoring Him without even being budged to a harmoniously soft dance using just even one of His feet to this overwhelmingly darn good orchestra? Let’s just say that I am not Him. But I was reeeaally curious, still am. I wanna know from you guys. Do you think God dances? And on that note, what are your thoughts on and interpretation of Zephaniah 3:17?

Let’s please get back to Psalms.

Simply put, the content in Psalms is not far-fetched and unrelatable. They, I believe were as a result of the writer’s day to day experiences, encounters and mood of: joy, victory, discouragement, disapproval, assurance, spite, respect, of being disheartened (as in the picture we see when his son died and he refused to eat for three days), a defiant celebration mood (as in what we see when he leaps and dances 🕺with gladness as the Ark of God was brought from the house of Obededom into the city of David.

But my horn Oh Lord, thou shalt exalt like that of an unicorn!

Unicorn 1


To begin with, this is a statement that can only be made by someone who is not wavering, someone who has been long enough with God to know that He neither changes nor breaks that which has proceeded from His lips.. David doesn’t state, ‘But my horn you might exalt, or you can exalt if you so wish or if I don’t offend you, or as it suits you or as you deem suiting for me.’ No, He says, you #will exalt – showing a solid and unshakeable belief in Him who is to deliver that which we completely have no control over; yet the only control that we can exercise on it is believing and firmly knowing it, then living in that space that isn’t yet as though it already is.

To understand the context of David’s declaration, let’s get to analyze and understand some few words:


-A mythical animal typically represented as a horse with a single straight horn projecting from its forehead.

-In another conceptualization, an unicorn is something that is highly desirable but difficult to find or obtain.

-An unicorn may also have been some gigantic ox or buffalo now unknown, perhaps extinct. Among the ancients, it was the favorite symbol of unconquerable power and one which the psalmist adopts as his emblem.

To exalt: (verb – of a person or their rank or status) Place at a high or powerful level; held in high regard.


A hard permanent outgrowth, often curved and pointed, found in pairs in the head of cattle, sheep, goats, giraffes etc.

Horns are also an animal’s weapon; they symbolize strength and power.

But my horn:

This statement points out to David’s kingdom, his royal authority, power and glory signified by his horn. He had subdued nations and kings and was exalted above them, then obtained rest from all his enemies. It also shows how his kingdom just as was promised, will be a forever established dynasty.

Let’s take a look at the scriptures below and see how the Angel Gabriel addressed Joseph, as well as what he had to tell Mary concerning this kingdom.

Matthew 1:20 But while he thought on these things, behold the angel of the Lord appeared unto him in a dream, saying, Joseph thou son of David, fear not to take unto thee Mary thy wife: for that which is conceived in her is of the Holy Ghost.

Luke 1:30-33 And the Angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favor with God. And behold thou shalt conceive in thy womb and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name Jesus. He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David: And he shall reign over the house of Jacob forever; and of his Kingdom there shall be no end.

Fast forward, let’s have a look at a portion of Scriptures that contain this covenant fulfilled that was spoken to king David through prophet Nathan.

2 Samuel 7:8-16 ‘…I will set up thy seed after thee, which shall proceed out of thy bowels, and I will establish his kingdom. He shall build an house for my name, and I will stablish the throne of his kingdom forever… and thine house and thy kingdom shall be established for ever before thee: thy throne shall be established forever.

Lessons from the different facets of David

David’s story is very ordinary, one that any ordinary person from any walk of life can relate with. He didn’t beforehand experience the high life. We all know how a shepherd’s life differs from that of a king’s. He wasn’t born into a kingship dynasty (His father Jesse was not a king), yet due to his heart and faithfulness, he leaves behind him a royal dynasty that God establishes with him through a covenant.

This comes to remind us that it doesn’t matter where we come from; God can transform the story of anyone.

And what is the implication of this to a Christian?

-The mere fact that you have accepted Christ qualifies you as a daughter or son of the King – you therefore are royal! A royal who has wholly evolved doesn’t get frightened by things like recession. Whichever season you find yourself in, you learn to adjust your lenses, adorn a heart of gratitude and contentment in all situations. You wake up in the morning with ecstatic joy, eager to face the day ahead and declare it’s gonna be a fruitful one ‘cos you acknowledge who holds your life together and that it doesn’t lie at the mercy of anyone. Yours is already a designed destiny and all you need is to tap into and receive the resources that come with Godly purpose and that only Him has the power and infinite ways to provide for, and which, yes as sure as the sun rises from the east and sets in the west, have already been provided for. You become content as a shepherd much as as a king. Yes, you come to a point of realization that your worship can only be for one person and that before you make the slightest move, the greatest honor rests with Him who must always be consulted. I love the way David always consulted God, let’s take a look.

2 Samuel 5:19-20 (KJV)

And David inquired of the Lord saying, shall I go up to the Philistines? Wilt thou deliver them into mine hand? And the Lord said unto David, ‘Go up for I will doubtless deliver the Philistines into thine hand. And David came to Baal Perazim, and David smote them there, and said, The Lord hath broken forth upon mine enemies before me, as the breach of waters. Therefore he called the name of that place Baal Perazim.

But my horn shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn!

Of what implication is this to a Christian?

-It means that the journey to purpose is an evolution, of self-discovery, of not reaching a destination, but of becoming… of not striving, but resting in the know that all we ever need to fulfill purpose with is already fully provided for.

Psalms 139:16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

All the days of our lives were already ordained for us and were written in God’s Book before anyone of them began. In other words, there’s a book that God has written about each of us that was finished before we were born. None of us is a mistake!

Ephesians 1:3 Praise be to the God and Father of our LORD Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ.

Has shows an action that is already complete. God has already supplied everything you need for the fulfillment of your purpose, but it is locked up in the heavenlies. It is on earth but it is activated in the spiritual. Whatever you were born to do, all the resources are already available; however these resources do not move towards you, ‘till you begin doing what you were born to do, ‘till you start activating your purpose.

Ephesians 2: 10 For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

The works that we were created to perform were already prepared long before we were conceived.

So what is the implication of this to a Christian?

-You have to acknowledge your royalty and act royal – be royal! Being born in a royal family and having the name doesn’t automatically make you think and act royal, just as being around the blood of Jesus doesn’t automatically make you be born again.

I love the way Reinhard Bonnke put it in one of his books that I repetitively loved reading and preach-acting back then when I was only 10 years old.

“An atheist challenges me on a Television program. He says, ‘I don’t believe there’s power in the blood of Jesus. The blood of Jesus has been around for almost 2000 years and if there was any power in it, the world wouldn’t be in such a sorry state.’ “ I replied him, “Sir, there’s also plenty of soap around, yet people are still dirty. Soap doesn’t make you clean by just being around it, not even if you should work in a soap factory. You have to take it and apply it personally. That’s how it is with the blood of Jesus.”

And I am coming to believe today that that this equally applies with royalty.

We have to, with utter humility, recognize our position. We just don’t take any treatment brought our way; we are royal! And royal undoubtedly, indisputably and affirmatively we become when we stop thinking and acting like slaves. It means that as long as we are walking in His will, He positions us. We will always be where we need to be, with whom we need to be with, learning the lessons that will thrust us forth into the next step of destiny. And sometimes, the longer we take to master the lesson, the more a repeat of the class beckons and the slower we’re most likely to tap into the succeeding step.

-It also means that the journey of evolution into whole royalty carries with it innumerable lessons: of humility, of wisdom, of brokenness, of patience, of gratitude, of a warrior mindset, of alertness, of selflessness, of death to self, of intentional love, of contentment, of being deliberately particular on who speaks into our lives… for if you are to be the next Godly: statesman/ stateswoman, ambassador, pastor, evangelist, teacher, prophet, apostle, entrepreneur, employer, husband/ wife, father/ mother, author, show presenter, scientific researcher, inventor, influencer…, then you gotta learn and act your royalty while still in that wilderness, while in the prep room. They say, great warriors don’t wait for the time of war in order to practice or prepare for the war; they practice long before hand.

And so we gotta be solidly in acknowledgement of this truth regarding our royalty as well as be in firm practice of the same long before the crowns hit our heads.

But my horn Oh Lord, shalt thou exalt like the horn of an unicorn!


“The Best Kept Secret” (YouTube) – Dr. Myles Munroe (1995)


What comes to your mind when you hear this word detach??

For me, they are words as: unclatter, clean up/ tidy up, detoxify your heart, mind & spirit, keep the breeding location spotless in readiness for the NEW.

Well, I don’t know ’bout you, but when I think of ‘to detach’, what comes to my mind is holiday time, when one’s heart deeply yearns for #newness & freshness, far from the hustle n bustle of city life, when you get to switch off all your gadgets: the computer, the phone(s), the iPad, except the camera… generously take in some handsome scoop of fresh, unrationed air then slowly allow your heart to relax and revel in the treat, be it in a park, in the wild or next to the shore, with toes beneath the breathtaking, silk, soft crystalline white sands of the beach when this time the soles of your feet & entire being get to sing a serenade to the sand.

It’s already spring time here. Immediately right in front of this transparent expanse of a door facing me, are cars passing. Further a few meters ahead is one breathtaking sight – a park that has undergone a complete and an abrupt transformation. Just 3 weeks ago, the branches of this huge tree in it thoroughly needed wear, yet majestically it stands right now before my sight above the rest. Budding ivory flowers embellish the branches and it has spread its countless branches, philanthropically so, just as an eagle undeterred, spreading its wings in readiness for flight and the beauty of it all is unparalleled. Just one irresistible glance at this beauty, accelerated by the April showers sends guiltless serenity to the very core of my soul. 🤫 And then I detach…

Well, when I think of to detach, I think surrender. Those moments on a prayer mountain, when I have to let go, to unclatter inorder to achieve the mission that in the first place took me there: a revelation, that small still voice, an answer, an assurance of His will in the matter and deep in the silence, within a crisp clean heart, He always lays a sign.

However, the basis of my writing is informed by “Detachment” that attracts the “NEW

TO DETACH (verb)


-Disengage (something or part of something) and remove it.

-To separate or remove something from something else that it is connected to.

Synonyms: Unfasten, disconnect, disengage, part, separate, unhitch, free, loosen, untie etc.

Deep attachment to various things could hinder our progress to the next level or hinder us from accessing the #new. And all before we ever completely detach, the only sign we will ever read is “Access Denied!”

So strongly are we consistently attached to things that we must utterly detach from: sin, noise, negative thoughts/ mindsets, fear, doubt, toxic relationships, forgetfulness, perpetual adoration of our own self-instituted objects of worship and the list goes on. When more value, importance & priority is attached to our own way for ourselves at the expense of God’s for us, while at the same time asking God to release the new, do you see as I do the underlying paradox?

Throughout Scriptures, we see different episodes of detachment or of commands to ‘detach from’ in order to gain access to the next level. Detachment: from sin (Heb 12:1-3), Abram from his country, kindred, even his father’s house (Gen 12:1-2), Gideon from fear (Judges 6:), a constant reminder to the Israelites to detach from worship of foreign gods and equally detach from forgetfulness (or indirectly so, constantly being taken aback on how mightily He had delivered them out of the hands of the oppressor in Egypt). We also see the disciples being urged to detach from little faith and we read of Zechariah’s encounter hence lesson to detach from doubt…and so on and so forth. But wait! Zechariah’s story genuinely intrigues me…, like he doubted an angel! Then had to go dumb thro’: conception of John the Baptist, 9 months of Elizabeth’s pregnancy, the birth of John ’till his naming – how long was that?? Until he believed the angel’s message then wrote down the name John, ‘acting in belief’ of God’s messenger and thereby cooperating with the heavens, he remained dumb. Detaching from doubt!

All the examples of stuff I’ve mentioned way above that we fight so hard to detach from constitute the OLD.

The NEW.

Where there is prone to be abuse, I believe God withholds. Abuse is misuse of anything that has been entrusted to us.

‘Till there is full and complete detachment from what threatens the conduciveness of an atmosphere of that which God intends His promise to thrive in, expect delay! Sometimes I think God doesn’t deliberately make us wait, hold onto His blessings or His promises from us, rather, our thoughts, words & deeds, plus our stubbornness in letting go of the old, our solid proof of imminent abuse and our inability to see the value of the new will always cause delay. He will not release where there’s no cooperation!

I have a personal experience testimony of how God will not release even a simple revelation in chaotic space, on how He will withhold, cause delay… on how ’till we unclatter the atmosphere within our minds & hearts from the #old in readiness for the new, we’ll continuously wallow in the old and perpetually in delay.

We tend to have a very limited understanding of NEW. Our new goes something like this: “God pls just gimme this one thing. And at the back of our minds this is the ongoing plan…’I’ll take a bit of the new, a tiny piece of the old, do a beautiful mélange and have my tiny piece of heaven down here on earth.’ 😊” But alas! God’s genuine description of new be totally different 😎.

When I was at the heart of writing the book I’ve been working on for the last one & a half years or so, one of the deepest revelations that so strongly came to me was NEW: the value of new, the depth of new, the different facets of new (within different domains), how God loves new and why new has to be just that 🙂, NEW; it’s such a huge topic that requires its own space, time & research. Interesting that before God ever comes up with something new, He always examines the atmosphere that will nurture it.

You tell God, ‘Please do a new thing in this area of my life.’ And He in turn examines your heart and goes, ‘this environment is not yet suitable since it is not ready as yet to: take care of, groom/ nurture, love, protect, defend, sustain or even see the value of the new they are asking me for.’ Before God made Adam, He made Eden – ‘the presence of God.’ (Eden is not a physical location). Before He created the sun, moon & stars, He made the firmament. Before He made fish, He created the water bodies. And we therefore see how #crucial the atmosphere that contains and nurtures the promise or the creation of God is to Him. He releases only when the atmosphere is ready. Imminent abuse only results to Him withholding.

Over time, as I observe the world around me, I realise that man’s understanding of NEW and God’s perception of the same are like day and night, there’s no comparison!

This is how Jesus alluded to the value of #new in a parable.

Mk 2:22 And no one pours new wine into old wine skins. Otherwise the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wine skins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.

Only the person with shallow understanding of the value/ worth of their new wine will pour it into an old wine skin.

We are always in a constant search for and a constant yearning for the new: new horizons, new relationships, new/ higher heights with God, new home, new/ higher ranks in job or business or promotion, fresh joy… simply just that new lease on oomph! new, new, new…

Question is, are we genuinely ready to receive it/ them? The level of our readiness determines the portion of the gift and by extension, its release.

#Detachment always preceeds release!

Unclatter, completely detach from…then effortlessly walk into your new 🙂.

Detach then re-boot 😉.

You Find your Purpose in your Pain

We had a really powerful fellowship at a friend’s boutique last Thursday. No, it was not early morning before she opened, during lunch break, neither was it in the evening during closing hours. Actually clients were streaming in and as they left, we would continue with our meeting. Shall I call it a testimony Thursday? Only the three of us, and the glory of God was right in our midst. With such magnificent power and intensity, it mightily came down and encompassed us as a blanket. Must have been shortly before noon and this continued ‘till shortly after 3pm when we closed with a word of prayer right in the boutique. The ambience conducive for sharing spiritual matters with candour in her boutique is unmatched.

Somewhere in between our meeting, one of our friends and a former neighbor who had just returned, stepped in and mentioned that she was trying to identify her purpose. Quite timely! This being a topic of great concern and that is so close to my heart, I directed her towards some of the teachings by Dr. Myles Munroe.

Against this background do I formulate my writing for today.

FP 1

You find your purpose in your pain.

Not only that. You also find it:

-In your gifts and talents

-In what bothers you

-In your area of training and expertise

-Through the Holy Spirit

Please note that God doesn’t always necessarily use qualified vessels. Most times, He calls us then He qualifies us. We have to acknowledge that He takes an unqualified vessel whose heart’s posture is that of obedience and of brokenness to convey His perfect message or to execute a mission within a certain season and within a domain that that same vessel could still be struggling with in understanding it in depth or putting it into practice, yet qualifying him, making the vessel look like the expert he is not in that area can surely only take the mighty hand of God and the leading of His Spirit. And as vessels, we are called to a place of humility, of knowing and being deeply convicted that only the Holy Spirit places His expertise in us.

I secretly reckon that there are quite a number of reasons God will specifically ask you or specifically use you to undertake a given task. Here are some:

  1. There’s a move of His Spirit that He wants to be sensed in a specific geographical area, in a specific season, on a specific subject – within a specific context…some kind of a revolution.
  2. He has qualified you and prepared you hence you are ready in your heart to be used. Otherwise put, you are an expert-in-the-making in that field.
  3. You are the most pathetic student of that subject that He is asking you to tackle. And as you act in obedience, as you research, as you listen to His Spirit and act in accordance with His directives, as you commune with Him and spend more time with Him, He is enlightening you on the subject, gently showing you who you really are and giving you a chance for your heart to be transformed.

So, the next time He tells you to write/ speak about/ preach/ teach on or tackle a subject, say: Forgiveness, Love, Stewardship or Prayer, ask yourself, ‘why am I being asked to share of such?’ Don’t get it twisted! It might not necessarily be ‘cos you are the expert in that area, it could simply be ‘cos He is teaching you practically and profoundly the real implication of that which He has allowed you to tackle as well as causing the transformation of your heart, spirit and mind in the process.

I remember kneeling by my bed side in prayer mid-October last year when I heard the Holy Spirit whisper to me just in four words, “Identity, the Father’s Love”, this, in reference to the themes that we were to tackle in our maiden book.

Truth is, I didn’t know then the mere definition of Identity and was probably the most pathetic student on this matter. Truth is, I had never read and still up to now haven’t read a single book on Identity. Truth is, that is exactly where my pain squarely lied then. Truth is, if qualified people on this subject matter were to be chosen to handle it, then I wouldn’t have featured anywhere close to probably the top 70 gurus. Yet He saw an unqualified, obedient vessel as I. Coming from a point where I utterly knew nothing concerning this topic, to being thrusted into the unknown, into a classroom where the Holy Spirit was my sole instructor on the subject, directing me on the relevant scriptures, expounding on them and even putting the content in my heart and spirit, to a place I can now boldly speak on such a subject matter, leaves me with the unwavering conviction that He is the best and unbeatable teacher alive. When He gives revelations, no one can stand against or demean what is a result of His power and what has been purely breathed of Him.

Albeit, it took me some months to ask myself, ‘why was this entrusted to me?’ And going back in time, I realized that back then, close to 5 months, I had been on a persistent rhythm of excruciating agony, one indescribable in words, of emotional turbulence only God could decipher and to top it all, of spasmodic phenomenons of soiled Identity. Right in the depths of your pain, you find the tiny bits of puzzles of purpose.

God will always give you a project that you can practically relate to. I was never and will never be the ultimate expert in that field, yet He qualified me in that moment to look as one, ministering to me, taking me through a journey from soiled identity to a point of accurately defining and deeply understanding with irrevocable conviction, my authentic Identity. I honestly have things I re-read and I can clearly point out, “I didn’t write this”, “This is not my mind”, “I sure cannot think like this by myself”, “This is beyond me.” All glory to Him who qualifies the unqualified and the disqualified and sees value and importance in the one whom mortal man recognizes not.

Just a reminder from whence I began. Before you minister to others, always try and find out how God wants the same message to minister to you. One pastor who has been reviewing this book in question, I remember at some point two months ago pointed out that I had rushed on the sub-topic of forgiveness and I had to go back in prayer, in research, in writing additional content. Food for thought! – When He urges you to do something, it is not merely for the audience! Think about it!

You will find purpose in your pain. Don’t push away the pain. Ask God instead, what His purpose is through it all.

I have also noted, still on Purpose, that God will most times than not use us to relay a message we can practically relate to. Let’s look:

-If you have struggled with sin, bondage, addiction, and convictions by the enemy of how pathetic a sinner you are, God might ask you to deal with the topic of Freedom, not because you are an expert in the field, but through the journey, He qualifies you as one and in His own special way, equally ministers to you.

-You can’t speak, teach or even write about Faith if you can’t practically relate to the different dynamics of it.

-It’d be easier to tackle and understand subjects such as the Father’s love, being Spirit-filled or conversations with God when you can personally relate, have practically been there and have come to a level of experiencing it for yourself.

-People who have struggled with the pain of rejection, maybe of being adopted as kids, of having no one to pamper them with love as they grew up, when they get over it, on the flip side will most often talk about, teach or even effectively tackle the subject of Forgiveness and even help those who are still struggling with the same through the process as they can practically relate.

-Someone who has witnessed or experienced shuttered marriages might want to be used by God to save marriages falling apart.

-After receiving grace and pardon from being behind bars and serving as a prisoner, one will be more inclined to serving in such an area ‘cos they can practically relate with that pain.

-If you have struggled with dearth, then you will be more drawn to giving, to being hospitable, to generosity and reaching out to the poor.

-If John is regarded as the disciple of love and it is equally recorded that he was the disciple that Christ loved the most, then I believe his understanding of love was at a depth incomparable. He must have been able to at a deeper level practically relate to love as a subject matter and as a verb as well as with Love Himself as a Being.

Not only are we led to act in areas we can relate to and towards people we can relate with. If you look carefully: You will always find your purpose in your pain.

How do we Identify our Purpose?

  1. It is in your gifts and talents. There gotta be a reason Father God endowed each and every person with a treasure/ treasures in just the right measure.
  2. It is in what bothers you and won’t give you rest until you act. You are upset about lack of adequate knowledge on the masses concerning: taking good care of the environment, proper stewardship, divorce rates shooting up and marriages breaking down, gayism, crippled people and street children increasing in the CBD, bad governance, why Biblical truth is being watered down? Then dig deeper. These are just but to name a few.
  3. It is right there in your pain and awful experiences. You suffered rejection, through it you learn how to love. You suffered lack, through it you learn generosity…and so on and so forth
  4. It is in your area of training and expertise. When you have prayed about something, have been God-led, i.e. He allowed you to pursue a course or training, then through the training, purpose is beckoning. However, we have to be flexible to allow God to direct us in the appropriate skills usage. Example, I am a trained High school teacher of French and Literature by profession and the skills I acquired in teaching, I now use as a Sunday school teacher. Every time I think about this, it reminds me of Mark Batterson’s quote, “Everything in your past is preparation for something in your future. God wastes nothing!” And with that, I still look forward to when and how I will apply my knowledge of the Russian language.
  5. It is in that secret place that is purely accessible, solely through prayer. There are things that I can bet you 100%, you will never know about yourself until you come to that point of a deeper intimacy with God, of curiosity and of desperation; to that point of listening to that one voice that truly matters and well, of acting in obedience. This is mostly where our calling is hidden.

-However, it is not always automatic that we will easily embrace what He wants for us. We fight at times, though it is in embracing and accepting His pre-ordained plans for our lives that a new perspective of purpose is visualized.

By no means is this list exhaustive.

FP 2

What I want or what He wants? My way or His?

I remember at around 16 years of age or 17 or thereabout reading books by Dr. James Dobson and Gary Smalley and I really fancied, like really, really fancied being a marriage counsellor when I grew up. Smile😊😊. Imagine being like a Doc., putting back together broken pieces of relationships that are no longer in alignment with each other and with God, giving prescriptions then letting God do the rest. How cool!?😊. It’s like the real Doc. who treats then God does the healing. And here I am today😊.

I am simply highlighting this to point out that there are things we might want to be, then there is what was already pre-destined before the foundations of the earth that we would be. Getting a clear difference between the two is key. And every revelation of the different puzzles of purpose apply in its season. Walking in obedience is non-negotiable. And one day, we will look back and be able to see how God, moved by our obedience, was piecing together the tiny bits to make the whole – the Big Picture.

As I conclude, I wouldn’t want to give so much from a book that is yet to be published, yet even so, I will quote a small portion as a parting shot.

“When we operate within the confines of God’s divine will, and equally in obedience, then He gets to give us the guide towards each tiny puzzle of our purpose that put together, later form the Big Picture.

No doubt, the eventual panoramic conceptualization of the big picture of purpose thereby relies heavily on obedience as its pillar. God gives us tiny glimpses that build up to this big picture through simple tasks ordained by Him.

Without being in tune with Him (listening) and obeying (acting/ moving), we’ll never get this eventual panoramic view.

And if we keep waiting for the Big Picture in its totality in order to move, then we will never begin!” – Book title withheld.

Yes, it is true. One of the areas where we will find purpose is right in our pain!

Don’t push the pain away. Right in the seemingly dregs, therein lies Purpose!

Cheers to a Purpose-led life.

Me 😊.